Copy of Notes - 12-24-15

If Katie was actually a king sized bed with comfy sheets and lots of pillows I would sleep on her for sure. 

To Mel: I think it's okay for some one to give their friends special attention, besides, she already knows I like her. I know I still really like her too... And she is still very special to me so I find it positive and helpful for our friendship. If I just ignore her I will look bad, and probably a little bit irritated... I don't want that. Comfortable silences can be golden, but not when it's not really necessary. I looked up the word "Yup" I am a little worried now.

Unblock FB out of spite 4KT

I feel that were missing out on each other lives, we don't have much to converse about. It's like a portal to your life. Every time I look at Facebook and see you not there, I am reminded why... I'd rather not go back to those thoughts. It won't solve everything. From the "Yup" I take it you're still upset about the stuff I posted. I feel we're friends enough I real life after spending time and causal conversation together. This is not my world, my life doesn't depend on it, but it could help at least a little. Opposites attract! We have more in common than you think!

Baby steps:ask for conversation time

Open up to the topic

See how she feels, conclude. I am getting mixed signals that seem to change every time we're together.

Positivity: Haven't been checking for the unblock, sometimes I forget about Facebook altogether. I barely look from my second profile, my OCD has gone way down, which is good. We seem to be good friends, she's responding to my smirky comical lines. She even sang based on song lyrics she picked on from our conversation in the car back from merry mead farm. She like it at the end of the table as well.

Pop Quiz: What Whole Number comes between 142 and 144? ;-)

From her not wanted to block people's view Sunday, to being blocked in Tuesday night, that makes #2

She does not like her job. She misses it after a few days. She Isn't certified, students need help. She needs to learn to be the light in their world. She lights up any room she walks into with just a smile. This is a new experience for her. She'd like to go back to having a class of her own and teaching them. If she can handle special ed kids, she can manage with adults like me. Ian is headed to the Navy in March.

Can we just put our genders and just chat? She mentioned something about having all bad dates. I am getting mixed signals over here. I want to be sure. 

We both ordered the same food at grub burger. Last ones to leave. Both thought of up when we saw the Balloons in TWD. We sat together this week, Andrew and Shannon to the couch. Steve became a new committee member.

Did you know I studied Geology? 

I can tell that you rock ;-)

She mentioned she as also addicted to her phone and Facebook just like me. I may suggest for her to put her phone down and be happy living in the moment. Life passes you by when you're scrolling. Noticing transitions from couches to chairs. Next to me this week. Apparently, she really likes "Hello" by Adele. As she was singing when she came in. Her Nose has been itching a lot. We need to life / lift each other up. Be compassionate to one another.

This Rumor that has been going around just tore our relationship apart. I've had issues, she's had em too. They're only circling around us for some reason. Like a trend. Everyone else seems to be fine. I'm working where God is working on all this, it doesn't seem like his will to have Satanic things cutting away at what friendship connection we have left, if any. I am in deep shit. Don't want to encounter another Jenny Stark dilemma.

Tim, you and I talk about Katie all the Time... What makes us different? If we're going to talk about her, I'm sure she'd like to know what people are saying. One way or another, we shall communicate our thoughts and feelings. Things should subside after some more time. I want to talk soul to soul and face to face so it's more intimate and genuine. Talking over text and chasing down conversations with her is obsolete and inefficient. She probably has a few things to ask after she assumed what she did. I'm hoping we can get our feelings flushed out and go back to being stable. I'm sure she wants that too, right? No more tension or drama. Just friends. If we're going to be talking about her for the fourth time, then this is gonna be some serious shit. She should be there, since she's in the nucleus and heavily involved. Sometimes, the best way to resolve a conflict is by hugging it out, I've seen it on TV and IRL.