Relationships

Is it okay for a brother to be attracted to his sister? Recently, I have had some emotional feelings towards this one person in my life... and a few others. Specifically, one of these individuals makes me feel happy, and good inside for a few reasons: She is a girl and she’s always nice to everyone, and understands what she hears most of the time… she gives good advice too, if you can get her to sit down and discuss your issues, or in my case, new insecurities, and she usually doesn’t spread gossip or speak blasphemy or rumors. I read that in a study people who are more holy and, are more involved in their studies become more qualified to be attractive to others. People in my group seek love in god within the person, and not the individual, or their materials. I am aware that this “love” is not the love where I want to date her, it is not a holy, godly love, and it’s not an exactly a love focused on god. I wanted to “check in” or “talk” with these individuals to make sure our relationship status was okay, steady, and not on the rocks. From the two people I have, or had in mind, one of them I rarely see at all, and the other has “priorities” and sometimes forgets or “falls asleep” when the other person wanting to check in repeatedly says that they would like to meet over the phone, texting, and sometimes even facebook. When these things happen, I feel ultimately guilty, like I was completely forgotten about or not have gotten any attention when I was in a group situation. This happened to me many times before over the phone, and facebook… but when I am sitting right there next to the others and be ignored as if I was completely dead, it discourages me, and gets me worried about relationships. I’ve talked to numerous people many times, and it has helped substantially, and I think it is getting redundant, and could possibly be getting on their nerves, but they still have the love of a brother, and I appreciate those genuinely nice people who take the time to discuss my issues or insecurities. I guess our “unofficial meeting” wasn’t meant to happen, or something was hindering it from happening. I later told myself that it was not right and, it may bring more drama and, make things worse and more awkward. When I get close to meeting with a new person I get excited for it, and it gives me something to look forward to, and lets me release some of the tension and feelings that are bottled up in my mind, just waiting to come out.
It usually takes about a week to meet with them, and sometimes it takes too long, and the meeting never happens because I change my mind, or realize that I’m being selfish, and focusing on the wrong thing. I made myself aware that I was focusing on the person more than on god. I feel that sometimes I am coming out to the group for the wrong reasons. Instead of studying, I come to have social interactions. I still attend ever week because it is awesome, and it is a great place to be with others in a small group setting. I have a chance to participate and, gain wisdom from the discussions. I try to pay attention and, get involved with all the questions as much as I can. I probably should read the word more than I am, because my friends are all much more religious in that aspect. That book has all the answers in it, and helps in time of need to back up everything that comes from your lips. All I can do now is to continuously pray about it and, hope things remain steady and that no more issues will arise underneath a dark cloud of smoke and rain that we won’t see coming.
*** Quotes ***
“Were living in a box called the world, we all need to work together to think outside the box.”
“Those in their own worlds need to be in there, except when we need them in our world.” (RN)
“She might suck at soccer but if you mess with her, she’ll kick your balls”

1 Corinthians 13:4
"Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud"